Mainichi

2012-01-27T01:32:00.000-08:00

My life had always went on smoothly. I am an extremely lucky person.

This is what I had always thought. Having pursue my degree in computer science, I had finally graduated. The jovial and simple minded me was joyful of this special event. Never did I realize that the real nightmare is going to start.

From applying from job through various sources to job interview, I get more dejected every-time I went through any of them.

Not because the interview didn't went well. I had found that it was awfully hard to find a job that could drive me to another level of career.

Even if it exists, the knowledge I had possess in my current state was not adequate.

Every-time this scenario occur, it simply serve as a reminder towards me on " ah how little knowledge I had in the area that I pursue my degree in".

Feeling dejected and exceptionally useless I shall sign off for today.
May God bless

2012-01-20T10:20:00.000-08:00

Once graduate, you are being unemployed!~
During my trip in China, this was a common term on TV.
How true is that, never underestimate the power of millions of people.

Computer Science was never my interests not to mention programming. Used to thought that I could used it as a platform to something else but it doesn't seem to be easy either.

Hope that god could bless me a chance to work in my place of interest. Rather than place of interest it should be my area of interest.

Whatever that I could receive, I would be thankful for what he give me.

Signing off,
Jessica

2012-01-14T10:51:00.000-08:00

古代书生抱读十年书，却未可知道是否有用武之地。

唐诗里记载的好

十年磨一剑。。。
指得不就是书生吗？自古以来从未曾变过。

养军千日用在一朝啊。凡事有何不可。
是是非非又有谁可定夺呢？

我有百思不解的忧愁，好友知己千杯少啊。

2011-12-18T06:35:00.001-08:00

Got woken up by my friend three time today

2011-11-22T22:42:00.001-08:00

Today I had a scolding from my mummy!!!

I know my problem all along...~ it wasn't a gd sign!

Me and my big mouth!!!

signing off~

Will alter my personality!

2011-11-22T09:05:00.000-08:00

Let me grumble again. Just Listen to me....

I read through facebook status again happen to see a status about opportunity.

It remind me of something.

For example 1:

there was this guy A who said that guitar are more difficult than piano...

For example 2:

there was this guy who complain about his inability to do something because he lack the opportunity to

For example 3:

there was this guy c who wanted to learn something but unwilling to put in effort, passion and sacrifices something e.g. time, money to learn.

I wonder if anyone beside me had any encounter with the above 3 guy that i had mention?

It might perhaps be normal, but something juz ticks me of.

First of all I shall start with guy A, how do you compare when you never try the comparison item before?

Next for guy B, denying an opportunity.... haha opportunity don't find you. You look for opportunity

Lastly, for guy C, I guess the principle of you reap what you sow apply?

signing off,

sweet dream my dear friend

2011-11-17T04:10:00.000-08:00

I had no place to grumble. So please forgive me if i am too naggy.

First I really hate guys who are a guys BUT only physically with a lady mental.

That's pure disgusting. Well it is ok if he is a gay...

Anyway to keep things short the characteristic that make me went crazy is sensitive.. in the wrong way.

Shiver*

Can't take it anymore disgusting!

2011-11-16T11:30:00.001-08:00

I could have never forgot 15nov2011. The meeting with our team supervisor had made the entire team fallen into depression mode.

I wonder if our project could made it through.

Though it was time for our team to think of a solution, the whole team was stuck there not knowing, depress. I wonder what could depression do. A better solution was needed.

Leader, since decades or even century ago are people who excel in this kind of situation. But apparently not all excel.

Hope that thing could change from the better here. I had no way to vent my inner emotion except this corner of mine.

signing off,
Jessica

2011-11-10T06:17:00.000-08:00

Someone ask me that "Do you believe that a girl and a boy could have a pure friendship."

Yes I do Believe.

In fact I would choose to.

As soon as some boy confess I am sure that we could not even stay as friend.

That is how firm my decision is. Being in some relationship mean destroying some other relationship.

Well back to my daily life =D Watch a movie today, awesome movie and awesome script!

在戏里的男主角，女主角们，童年的追足。少年的脚步，一点一点的踏上未来的路。

青春是那么的莽撞，那么的幼稚，那么的叫人回味。如果世上拥有着永恒的话，我相信那就是回忆。

美丽，

奇妙，

。。。

2011-11-09T07:53:00.000-08:00

Went to school today.

As usual, I drag my lazy feet all the way till I reach the lecture hall~

Reach around 5.55pm! First time in my life I was early, by 5 min though!

But Then I realize tat I couldn't get inside... The all mighty shameless me actually felt embarrassed entering a classroom during the middle of lecture... can't believe it!

Well, had a chat with lecturer Dr June Tay. I am glad that there was actually a lecturer like her.

Had received a lot of sound advice from her. Every sentences was precious and I really enjoyed it a lot. I am glad that I had defeated my laziness and went to school. =D

I believe this advice will lead me to a better path, towards a better future.

Now it was the new hopeful me!

After that went to find capo with yu hong, though unsuccessful! I found there are more economic way to do tat! FANTASTIC for the money deprived me this method was awesome!

signing off with hope

2011-11-06T09:23:00.002-08:00

Had Decided on something real big today!?

Someone used to ask me.. hey having stayed single for all these years wat type of guy are you interested in?!

Well,... I can finally answer them now... haha though it is impossible but juz thinking of it sent butterfly to my stomach! =D

1. Can drive : Reason, able to buy MacDonald and KFC easily for my Dear Figo kun

2. Memorizing the standard order that Figo Kun Eat...

3. Love my Family as much as I do =D

4. Always Listen to me and forgive me no matter what I do

5. Love me more than I do

Well tats all of coz if it comes with the 6th point would be better

6. Look Like Lee MinHo...

wooshhh... What am I thinking off.... ><

Happy >< wahaha

Signing off,

Dear jessica sweet dream!

2011-11-05T09:44:00.001-07:00

Stop thinking of all this irrelevant stuff and get ur honest work done!

2011-11-05T06:05:00.000-07:00

I used to thought that I am a honest person or I should be a honest person. I always liked being honest and the word honest.

Recently, I realized that I haven't been too honest with myself.

With regards, to the thing that made me feel this way, I shall kept it within me.

Basically I guess I dun really understand myself well. What kind of person am I? I would need to explore it myself

2011-11-05T03:24:00.000-07:00

I AM THE BEST PROCRASTINATOR IN THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE!

2011-11-04T10:53:00.001-07:00

Went to the Halloween that UOW student council had organised.

Even though it was much different from the scary, creepy atmosphere that I had initially thought of. It was definitely worth a few word of praises for the effort that they had put in. Though I would think that it could have been better but it was a gd laugh.

During the midst of the event, chelin had organised some gaming session, murderer was the game name. I had wanted to join them but I had no energy to continue it. Guess I would have to consider my age as well, can't really compete with these youngster.

Had notice a sweet looking girl along the way! Hey guys who say that computer science doesn't have any pretty girls?!

Might be weird for me to look a ladies instead of guys, well but I do not care, I shall do what I want to and I love to. Plus, unless there are gentleman but not juz childish guys I would stare as girls as long as I like to....

Going late~ I really had gd luck! Did juz enough to pester someone to bring me home hahahaaaa~ sense of achievement! Thanks you kind man you had really saved my pocket!~

With all my heart I would thanks and pray for himmmm....~

A single act of kindness would juz be more than enough to make me go kya~ all the way.

Signing off with thanks to the wonderful day god had given me =D

2011-11-02T11:27:00.000-07:00

what I had mention yesterday was obviously in impulse... I was wrong as well~

It certainly doesn't feel good to admit the mistake that I had made~

私ね。問題がある。私たぶん好きな人がいるけど。彼は好きかな私も分からないで。

愛はなんですか？わたし本当に分からないだ。

一度もう恋愛できないのわたしは愛は何ですか？全然知らない。

最近告白があるですけど彼全全興味がないし私のタイプインはないし。

実は私たぶん恋愛の事全然でいないとおもい。だれとすきとか？好き、私とって難しいな言葉です。理解しないで。。。

未来の事迷子になる。でもね、未来の子と誰も分からないから今何も分からないたぶん大丈夫かなと思い。

今の子と頑張ってれば大丈夫。

2011-11-01T05:13:00.000-07:00

Kind of got a scolding from someone and obviously I am not very happy about it.

Even assigning task to others has to be tactical. Obviously even though mark are awarded, no-one can be too happy when someone tried to act like a boss.

Put it in a nice way and I will do it.

Guess that apply to me too... Retribution could you call it?

2011-10-29T11:07:00.001-07:00

FYP proceeding...

My team mate was so fantastic that i can't keep up with them!

Jessica you gonna try your best =D oush!

2011-10-27T21:46:00.000-07:00

I am not a person who would read blogs. But it was a fact that blog would always brought along valuable information about a person that you could not know through face to face conversation.

Moving on. Everyone is moving on and it was not something that i could be astonished of. In fact, I should know that I am running away from reality. Reality is not that sweet afterall.

Recent years, I came to realize that even without me, their life could still move on in a perfect way. There isn't a way where who need who. The person beside you now might disappear for the next 10 years.

Well tat's for friend.

Family are for life though... No matter who I am, how i become, what I do. They would always be there. Whether I like it or not~

But well, I have to admit that I can't live without both. They give me experience, warm, feeling that could not be described by words. Either friends that treat me with love or friends who are passerby. They give me experience that I could have never forgot. Good or Bad doesn't matter. What they had taught me was a precious lesson.

It made me who I am today. Those who could accept would be good but those who can't there are still people who are willing to give me their acceptance.

NOTED: DUN LIKE ME? GD! MY EXISTENCE WAS NOT TO PLEASE YOU!!! =D

2011-10-20T22:09:00.000-07:00

Getting a little bit bored now~ staying at home all day juz doesn't suit me!~ ehh

if CCTV rewind a week ago="AHH I wan stay at homeeee and slp!!! SO MUCH"

Now, "ahh going to sch is nice!"~

Well nth can satisfied me anyway!

Got a job today~ but i turn it down... I shall find one after FYP so tat i would not be worry abt it!

Hope i could get degree with distinction!FAT HOPE! pulling myself back to reality!

Jia you Jessica!~

Read my friend blog juz now!~ I am kind of sad tat i am not there with her when she needed me >< should read her blog more =D cheers

I shall make full use of my days today!

got FYP

tons of jap homework!

MORE THAN enough to fill my dayssss....

People said tat when:

You ask a friend to make sandwiches

Me: Make sandwiches for me

Friend: Ok

But you ask a best friend to make sandwiches

Me: make sandwiches for me

Friend: you dun have hand ahhh!?

WOW inbal!

Signing off~ with love

2011-10-20T20:15:00.000-07:00

人の命は何ですか。私たち生きてるの意味はなんですか。

江戸時代，さむらいたち国のため頑張ります。

今の世界人間たちまる自分だけのため頑張る。

昔のSPIRITぜんぜんないか？

できるのか、江戸時代のとき行きたい。

もちろんこれはたぶんできないけど。これは私の夢だ。

2011-07-04T10:04:00.000-07:00

Brought a book, 今天你给自己打几分？
In the book it state, If you are had taken a task, just accept it!

是享受，还是忍受。
人往往都在忍受。不管是什么都好。
但忍受的心不甘情不愿。不得不否认我也是其中一人。
但有谁做得到喜欢做甘愿受这几个字呢？

2011-06-29T11:26:00.000-07:00

sch starting =D it's been a long time since i blog haha =D

Had been busy even during holiday... but well it made life fulfilling! Learn how to cook from my dear! Master chef jin jin! =D oh mannn whoever marry her is going to be so lucky! haha

Without a lousy friend, you won't know who your good friend is and how true is tat!

I am contented. I felt so lucky. God had treated me well!

Beside friend, I am glad that I had time to spare with my family during these two weeks of holiday even though it was not much but i at least allow me to appreciate family warmth without feeling and burden on top of me. For that i am grateful.

My social circle had broaden up since that day and I had learned a lot of thing, appreciated a lot of thing as if i had got to know the world again. The world isn't tat bad afterall =D

Sometimes for something you must felt it for urself not from others and how much i would have to agree with that.

Some time once thing are broken they are broken and could not be mend. But well, it was more impt to treasure wat we have now =D I am satisfied. It gave me peace =D

Thanks mother earth who gave me a chance to experience these emotion, they are precious.

I had read a book recently, ok well i will just skip to the summary of tat book. In the book it state that life are connected. I seriously appreciated tat. Who say ur death would not affected the world? Even though it might be small it would affected the world in certain way, either noticeable or not. =D I felt comfort upon reading through this book.

I wonder if there was any miserable out there who only think abt themselves and themselves. Living is not only about taking but also about giving. But how difficult it is to give unconditional. I guess those who does not know how to balance these would only lose out in the end, well tat's all my opinion... haha shall end for now =D

2011-05-30T00:56:00.000-07:00

Depressing...
When i had given up someone tell me to hold on. But what can i do if the involved parties choose to do nothing? And if the involved parties choose to ignore it, it could only mean this thing does not matter? Why should i even salvage something that doesn't matter?

Kind of pissed off. Never felt such an anger in my entire life...

2011-04-14T10:00:00.000-07:00

Thing that I am unclear of:

1. With Regards to the BLP (b,m,f,h)

h = hierarchy

does this mean:

(since the root must be of higher security level than the parent)

2. For puzzle:

In cases where puzzle could be one big puzzle or could seperate the one big puzzle to 8 smaller sub puzzle.

-Does this mean that: 1 big puzzle = 8 smaller sub puzzle?

The probability of getting them are?

(1/large puzzle) vs (1/smaller puzzle * 8)

In this case in term of working it will be:

FORMULA : m*2k-1 (to find the expected result by brute force)

Hence:

1/2^(k+3)

[Question over here: +3 should be the identifier for the big puzzle to identifier the big puzzle]

1/2^k8

[The k*8 over here is because there is 8 smaller puzzle]

In theory one big puzzle = 8 smaller puzzle

[since the 8 smaller sub puzzle was get by seperating the big puzzle into 8 diff puzzle]

how does:

1/2^(k+3) EQUAL to 1/2^k8? if the +3 refer to the identifier shouldn't the 8 smaller puzzle also have identifier as well?

e.g. 1/2^(8k+3)

2011-04-13T07:24:00.000-07:00

sitting down.. realising how immature and childish i was... Clearing my head and most importantly my heart... this moment, i felt a kind of relieve i never had before. As if i am freed from something. Or had gained two wings. Being as immature as i was i am glad tat ppl are willing to go along with me... however yet i know that this was definately not right to continue this way. I am thankful to the gods for helping me.. Heaven had been really kind to me =D If all the gods and mother earth could hear me I would like to thanks them for feeding me, forgiving me, helping me, even though i am so imperfect but yet they never gave me up. For this i am gladful.... and it wasn't a feeling that could be brought out by a single word. Please continue to guide me from now on.. :) I will learn seriously and take every opportunity or experience u gave me

2011-04-07T05:06:00.001-07:00

Sometime giving up might not be a bad thing. Life should be live, but not to live for life

2011-03-26T23:24:00.000-07:00

A little life was born, the wonderful feeling of being able to experience this life, meeting different kind of person, either good or bad, was all part of a life. Death it might seem faraway but yet near. Death was the end of the experience, the end of a show. Yet an end lead to another is the wonderful start. This cycle that mother nature had create for us. mother nature, something that was so mysterious but yet a part of our life which was essential. Being able to be here, can't felt how lucky i was. Being with the right parent, having a wonderful family. It give me the encouragement to try harder.

2011-03-26T09:01:00.000-07:00

I had been trying my best to maintain a certain sort of relationship...
However it's getting difficult, if it continue perhaps i should just give up
Why make life difficult for myself:)

2011-03-25T10:28:00.000-07:00

A day with sensei and fujimori san at my parent shop :)
Excessive sake, wine etc...
I shall work hard so can travel again! tat's it!
Yes! Jessica work hard to travel wahaha! tat shall be my motto

2011-03-23T10:08:00.001-07:00

Finished reading tuesday with morrie. :) Really glad that this book had been recommended to me:)
Thanks jin jin and jocelyn for ur great recommendation:)!
Through the book, a lot of thing could be learnt. Sometime tears just simply appeared while reading that book, as if whatever the old man was feeling, whatever the author was thinking of, I could feel it or I am at the scene itself. It sound rather exaggerated but that was just how i felt about that book.

A lots of thing was taught and a lot of thing was learn. This was a cycle. How good would it be if I could have an teacher or rather "coach" like morrie.

A good teacher could change the life of the student.

In the book it state that something more spiritual was needed. For example family love etc...
But yet people tend to neglect the one most important to them taking for granted.
People look at the thing that the culture allow them to think was correct.
But what was correct or what was wrong? The most important thing in life was to live as a human, live like a human. How wonderful this world be if everyone could help each others.
Irony, human solves many problem, but many of these problem was created by them.
We pursue a lot of thing in our life, money, status, power but in the end what we wanted most could be as simple as,
when we die and close our eyes, we could return back to the earth peacefully and once again become the cycle that could provide nutrient to the new born.

2011-03-18T23:54:00.001-07:00

今日日本新聞みった。悲しいだ。あの時どうして泣いて自分もう分からない。
たぶん私の関係じゃないですが、日本人たちの決心すごい。その津波事故前に
私日本の文化が好きだ。でもその事故の後と私は尊敬します。日本人たちの頑張って、自分の命危ないな時ほか日本人考える、手伝って。それがすごい。
未来どうか私もう分からないけど、日本はもっと頑張ってね。日本なら絶対できると思う。
命がいるなら何もうできる。私信じてこの世界たくさん私同じな人日本応援します！
病気の後薬食べて元気になりました。
災害あと、命はいる、命は守る、みんなにほか人間手伝って、みんなほか人間考える、みんな一緒に頑張って、もっときれい、ぴかぴかの未来見える。
もし自分だけ考える、例えば、自分は生きているけどみんなもう死んだら、生きてるの意味なんですか？その世界面白い理由はこの世界たくさん人がいるから、優しいの、親切の、。。。
だから人はほか人間の問題は私関係ない、ほか人間死んだら私もっと嬉なひとは世界一番悲しい。時々私考えます、どうしえ生きてる、もしこの世界自分考えるだけ？自分だけ考えるならなぜこの世界すんでいるですか？自分そんなに愛しているなら、誰もうないところ住んでいるはいいでしょう？

2011-02-26T06:53:00.000-08:00

I have this heavy rock inside me. I felt that i am almost going crazy. I get scared at times.
but yet i felt so uncertain and insecurity is swelling up inside me. I had no one to talk to. My mum get too tired, and i didn't even get to speak to her. I am afraid of so many thing, this emotion is getting worst and worst. I do not feel like doing anything i am stuck. I wonder, what can i do. Am I really that useless or helpless in my own life? Why is this thing even happening to me? What can I do and What do I want to do? I am stuck. I am lost.

Who can guide me my way? There is so many unknown question, so many things ... If god could help me one more time.. I would definately cherish this chance...

God if you are really here, guide me, God if you are really here help me. Let me be able to do something to my life.

I am perhaps too pampers, being in the greenhouse, I do not know the outside world but please let me survive. Please let me see that light. Please bring me back to life

2011-01-14T01:07:00.001-08:00

sch had started for ard 1 week++... got a caucasian lecturer.. whose accent was hard to understand... each of his lecture i dun even understand a SINGLE ONE! OH nooo...

Assignment coming wonder how am i going to deal with it...!!!

szHope everything will be well and smooth though i dun think it would be the case...
had programming option for the assignment java and c++... java supposingly to be easier but...
I forgot all abt java!!!!... however no matter which one i am doing i seem to be heading towards doom! GYM bless me!

2011-01-04T07:01:00.001-08:00

school going start the day after tomorrow... felt so unwilling... haizz...

2010-12-22T05:13:00.000-08:00

should blog about something happy once in a while...
Just came back from taiwan not really much thing for the first few day but the last few day thing got interesting!

lot of xiao mei mei! super beautiful girl walking on the street as if they just came out from some fashion magazine. omg looking at them making me super happy! >< waa tat sound wierd..
went to eat the fermented tofu... ohhh who tell me fermented tofu though smell bad taste GOOD! which part taste good!!! ohhh nooo the more i eat the more it taste like as if it is from drainage! bth!

went to shilin night market... hehe.. ate the ah zhong mian xian there super nice! whoever go there must try!

haizz everytime i think abt my result felt so sad... random..:(

during my trip to shilin of course must do wat all singaporean like the best BARGIN!
they thing call me mei nv got use ah! even though it kind of feel gd being call beautiful even when u are not buttt flattery does not mean that i will still buy from u at this price...! i counter attack by calling the shopkepper shui ge which meant handsome.. but it doesn't seem any use either in the end manage to bargin at 280 taiwan dollar which make it ard 14 sing dollar... when it was suppose to be 380 taiwan dollar not bad huh! hehe

went to ate several stuff which made my stomach super bloat till i have an additional of 1kg fats!

fats fats go away dun come again another day...~

went toi taipei 101 as well felt tat it was a waste of time... hmmm but still buy something over there.

At first thought taipei 101 had 101 floor of shopping area in the end there was only ard 5 floor including the basement.

went to xi men ding when someone wan to da shan... mean chase after my mother with some stupid old pattern like is your name mary? oh you look so familiar.

familiar your head there is no way my mum will be familiar to u.. i was going to say tat but my mum simply said.. ehh is it? You dun look familiar to me at all definitely! u must have mistooken me. I am so sure that i do not know you at all... waa the guy just stun a while and said ohh is it? maybe i mistaken you for someone else... haha... my mum was like haha it was not funny at all she just simply dun give tat guy any face she rocks!I love u mum!

but taipei stuff was not as cheap as i thought it was suppose to be infact except for the food the rest of the stuff is ard the same price as in singapore. i am totally broke after my trip to taipei...

my heart and pocket is broke... talking abt my result again haizz...

thought taipei will be a gd place to look at the celebrity at least some handsome guy or hot guy but apparently there aren't many hot guys but there are some pretty guys thought! omg... so pretty .. waaa so happy looking at them again... so sad that i was timid not brave enough to take some photos with them. ohh noo sad..

didn't really do much there since in fact i only have 4 days...

went to watson 7 times to check up things for my friend but apparently either it was out of stock or they didn't even sell it(they might sell it but communication error...)

jessica ah jia you jia you for next sem tat it!

2010-12-22T05:05:00.000-08:00

今日試験の結果があった！私の結果は人間の結果じゃない。
ほんどうに悪かった。悲しいです。今の気持ちは。。。
分からない。ただ心がちょっと痛い。両親は頑張ったでも私何しますか？

もっと頑張らなければなりません。

2010-12-20T01:55:00.000-08:00

信じない。友達を言うけど、ただきれいな話い。

友達なら私のことちょっと考えるでしょう。
行きたいけど行けないそんな気持ち分かる？

いつも自分だけ考えれば友達は何者だ！
友達は特別の人、いつもそんな思う。でも今友達は何全全分からない。
友達は私大切な人、友達わたし思う、私友達思う。そんなつながりとても大切と思う。

私たぶん違う。友達そんあ特別人じゃないですか？

ちょっと悲しいでしょう。

悲しいな私乾杯！

2010-12-06T01:09:00.000-08:00

still having my exam reunion... but decided to blog anyway >
oh seriously drain my health.... my HP now has been less than 1HP just enough to stay alive and walk ard but even with one super weak dun noe watever monster I could be KO anytime!

so many many thing that i had been wanting to do but bearing with it just with the mindset of everything after exam...

oh my first is exam third is exam fourth is exam...

going to buried myself in a mountain of book again..
GYM give me power!

2010-11-28T00:57:00.000-08:00

試験は近くだ。時間があまりない。頭が痛い。やる物たくさんけど、僕できる？
よく分からない試験のために頑張ってみたい。僕頑張るする！頑張ってならできる。そんなの考えて好き。

2010-11-20T09:19:00.000-08:00

felt lassitude recently... what should i do... just don't felt like doing anything though what have to be done would have to be done oh nooo

Assignment, exam driving me crazy... but thanks god i had my classmate and study partner...

hehe happy >

went to study today! fruitful.... haha lucky enough to be able to get to the singapore flyer with the js - (ah seow and jasmine though sadded) today...

2010-11-19T09:33:00.000-08:00

Test today... dun even felt like mentioning abt it.

Yesterday was a tiring day for me. Went home, slept with stress... tried so hard to wake up tat I dream tat I wake up. Went out my room in my dream somehow dream of my grandparent sitting together which was a super rare scene... but still dun really feel like talking to them hence walk back to my room only to found out tat they are in my room as well ...
look out at my room my grandparent, look in my room my grandparent...
still i ws stupid enough to think tat i got a illusion in my dream... got so scared that i faint in my dream! HOW COULD ANYONE EVEN FAINT IN THEIR DREAM...!? yes, yes it is me!
then i wake up after fainting -> in my dream! oh noo... it was...
DEFINATELY A NIGHTMARE!

2010-10-14T05:55:00.000-07:00

啊！~
今天一直说错话！
真是的！其实应该也不算说错吧！？只是听起来有点不对罢了！

一直等对方好浪费时间啊！
为什么不要跟你男朋友说：“来我家”！
听起来似乎叫他男朋友来我的家吗？
咳真是的！

2010-10-13T08:37:00.000-07:00

今日いろいろの話聞いた。恋愛感情は何ですか。私よく分からない。
私の分いつですか？あの特別な方今どこにいる？私たぶん頭壊れちゃった！なんでこんなバカの物考える！勉強、勉強。。。

恋愛私ね、いつも関係ない。今もう未来もう。恋愛はただ重いな負担、と思う。

2010-10-09T10:00:00.000-07:00

今日ちょっと疲れちゃった気分がある！
でも、たくさん楽しい記憶を作られる！幸せかな。。。
友達があった、ご飯を食べた、アイスクリームもう食べた！あらあら、ぶっといになる、か。。？
やだよ！優形欲しい！嘘！。。。いいえ嘘じゃない！恥ずかしい！

頭は壊れた！普通の俺はない！

したがって、頭変になる。

私ね、ピアノがすき、日本語がすき、パソコンがすき。だからも一度頑張って見よう！
できるか？できないか？今のわたし知らない。。。
頑張ってすると何もうできる。。。その考えって危ないだがその単純の考えって信じて欲しいです。

二十の私決めたん！ではお休みなさい

Bystander point of view on last friday in clarke quay

2010-10-05T07:05:00.000-07:00

Bystander A:
Scenerior:
Walking along the street of clerk quay, on the way to a drinking pub nearby, saw 2 girl, 1 guys carrying a box each.. together... a girl with long hair look extremely happy while carrying the box... poor girl must be trying to covered her sadness from her friends tat seem to be beside her. Economic is not that good afterall... Behind her happy expression, she had to carry the burden of losing her job.. poor girl.

However that is not everthing, her the other 2 friend seem to be carrying the box as well, it seem that they might be colleague of the same company... getting retrench on the same day...
wat luck they had~! must be some mass retrenchment happening! trying to drown themselves in the sorrow of alcohol... -> that why they are in clerk quay

Another girl carrying the box look confused! she must still be in a dazed... of her termination in her workplace! poor girl still clueless of whatever happening aorund her....

There was another guy with the same box... he look lethargic... he must had anticipated the day this day of termination to come to him in this era of poor economic... trying his best in the workplace everynight become lifeless/nolife but still he lost his job. When he was walking silently. can feel his killer aura... oh no who might know next day the newspaper might come up with the title... Man killed his boss after being suppressing for a long time in his work. continuously doing shitty job assigned,.. dangerous... I better mind my own business...

Seem like I should try my best in working before I follow their footstep...

2010-10-01T12:05:00.000-07:00

Officially 20...~.~ Yeah!
getting older and older every years... will get to the age tat i am sensitive of age soon!
haha celebration of 3 birthday today including me!
Let's all of us had a better years ahead....
I wish for:
increasing my IQ
growing VERTICALLY!
decrease HORIZOTALLY!
oh man, god must be playing a fool of me why did he always switch my birthday wish!
god god if u are there, please look properly at the cap follow by the one in front!
no switching!
horizontally = decrease
Vertically = increase
though it always seem other wise...

If Jia hui see this she will properly say u are dreaming! wait forever!
How I hope she won't see this!
I wish I wish I wish~
Jia hui won't tell me jessica u are getting fatter
Jessica ur IQ are decreasing
Jessica u are short!
... etc...
dun pull me back to reality let me stay in my small little beautiful world...~ oh...
She could at least tell me jessica u are not tat stupid, u are not tat fat, you are not tat short..
wahhaha! if jia hui say this i will get goosebump! ... forget it... she better stay as herself, looking at me with her super straight and honest eyes and say jessica i can see ur fats!
faint~

But once again why am i only 10 cents! at least 10 dollar >oh noooo....

unglam photo are increasing thanks to certain someone maybe while i am writing my blog right now in the middle of the night, someone is filtering photo opps ! way to go girl! My moral support will always be with u! only my moral support though!...

hoho... seems like someone is getting popular! perhaps next time can eat in koufu foc... hmmm tat one also can wait also won't come through!

Cycle cycle... want to go cycle! seow eh! when going cycle!...

2010-09-25T02:27:00.000-07:00

I am get really grumble and discontent... sometimes I am touched, sometimes i am disillusioned.
It take all sort to make a world. Should't we start thinking about the situation in others before we start going on.. oh I want that..! your idea should not be any better! or oh that's great. Since that's great for me that's great for you.
One man meat is another man poision... before deciding things or forcing things to others, I do feel that it would be good if one could consider that first.

In psychology, there was a common term called the significant others. People had different relationship to eacth others, friends, family. Depending on the level of the dependency and whatever link people had with each others.

how much people are willing to give to the others depend on that certain relationship, maybe.
Within a few moment of my life I would get disillusion that I do have a close relationship with someone. However one sentence from that person mouth would bring me back to reality.

may thy wilt, would a true soul be found?

Is it seriously that human relationship are so brittle that it was always out of sights, out of mind. Even though people are together because they found something in amazing in each others. And there was a connection there.

2010-08-04T08:43:00.000-07:00

c Programming learn today

scanf() Function - convert character stream into integer.(input)

2010-07-27T10:49:00.001-07:00

uni guys are so scary... first of all apple is a little bit hmmm yellow... next carrot is errr well according to wat jia hui say, carrot is nothing beside nothing.
Then kangeroo.. well at first thought he was a least normal but then was quite not in the right dimension as well.... and I really dun understand wat kangeroo is teaching omg...

well but even though i do understand apple teaching but he is too yellow... seriously cannot tahan!

2010-07-21T10:04:00.001-07:00

one of my friend have went to australia to study... really admire her courage to travel to such a far place alone... I dun think i can do it if it were me... ><

really wish that every thing will goes well for her... AND for me too!!! especially my C++...

omg ermmm..... 大学校の男は怖いです！その男たちは女も一度見ませんか？どうしてその変体ですか！ほんどう怖い！触らないでください！私今耐えるでもね！若しその日耐えないなら、絶対に殺す！きがくるう！地獄落ちろ！

私と女の友たちはその物分かる！

2010-07-15T10:05:00.000-07:00

Apple and cranberry are so scary! Jia hui noes it! Li ling can vouch for it!

2010-07-05T03:04:00.000-07:00

First day of Sch in SIM today..., hence begin my university life...!

It's going to make me vomit out blood and die of brain failure!
wat de... even though the teacher is speaking in english felt like he is speaking greek! dun even understand! First day...! and this is wat happens!

I need my chocolate... I need my kit kat I need my Meiji before I faint! OMG

2010-06-25T09:41:00.000-07:00

Woke up in fright.
Dream of adding a particular someone in facebook.
Even when i woke up I thought it was absolutely real!

Hence this illusion continue in my life until I checked my facebook a/c just a few min ago.

Can't believe accidentally accepting someone friend request in facebook could cause so much fright in me. Better be careful in the future.

Thanks god it is a dream...Relieve

2010-06-24T08:18:00.000-07:00

No matter how hard it is, parents will also provide for the Children, for their future and education, even if they have to work double they would provide for their children education.

I had always believed in that. believed in How noble parents are.

However it does not seems to be the case. No matter of any blood relation, or how close you are with each others, money would always be the most crucial parts in determined your future relationship.

It kind of weight me down, when I think of that.
Is Money the most crucial or important thing possible?
I wish I could know the answer. If the answer is No, when in times of money problem, how would those people who are deemed close to you really supported you? Or these people start to has hesitation?

It's kind of sad but I guess this is called reality.

2010-06-15T02:23:00.000-07:00

I am too free...暇すぎ。

頑張っている！　私は！日本の勉強もと難しいになる！
アニメ、たくさんみった！BがたHけい、なると、BLEACH,そしていろいろ変のアニメをみった。
変のアニメはどちら？私に聞かないでください。理由は、えとね、そのアニメちょっとSTRAIGHTじゃない！
SIMの手紙もらった。今、MONASH大学校の手紙まっている！早く来てください、手紙さん。

手紙さん会いたい。でもただMONASH大学校の手紙さんだけ。別のは来ないね！

きの、日本のFOOTBALL　TEAM VS　HOLLAND　FOOTBALL TEAM.　すごいと思う！日本の勝ちだ！やったね！日本FOOTBALL　TEAMよく頑張ってね！

2010-06-13T10:14:00.000-07:00

Today, went to IT fair with Jia hui first, then Jasmine hoin us with their few others attachment friend... wooo...

Brought a laptop and hard-disk.

My Pocket was greatly hit by a tornado... So it had a super big hole right now... almost as deadly and deep as a BLACK HOLE!

Recently, I found myself to be really fortunate.
I had a bunch of friend who are willing to listen to my grumble, willing to console me when i need it. Even in times when I tried to hide my depression from them, they would tried to find out my feeling, understand me and so on.

Anyway,.. in short I am really lucky! haha..

Haizzz.... If I have something that I really hate..., it would be looking at my parent hand, even a glance of it really piss me off a great deal.

I am really angry at myself. If I had something to be proud of, it would be, diligent, my parent are real diligent when it come down to work though I sometime do think that they work so much that they forget something else that is important.

Their diligent was shown in their hand. As a result from working too hard, their hand looked terrible. Seriously terrible.

Whenever I looked at their hand especially my mum, I would be very angry at myself for not being able to provide them a good life but instead be a burden to them. Not only they have to take care of the family, they have to carry the burden of my studies as well.

However, in order to find a decent job, I believe that I should study to further improve my knowledge, being able to live by myself or study oversea will help me to grow, not only in term of brain/knowledge but as a person as well. Every successful person had to be independent I guess... at least.

But, even though I had made my decision, the idea of being a burden to them had been weighting a great deal.

I can't balance out both of them... that's why I had been in serious depression and normal mode recently.

Even with a bank loan, given my capability, I can't earn back all the money for my studies before the interest start. Hence I needed to rely on my parent even though it will bring a great deal of stress to them as they will need to worked double hard when they are already working as hard as they can right now.

But I guess I dun really have a choice since EVEN (Emphasis) SIM rejected me, what could I do?

I would like to minimise the damage that could be done.
Nothing is more important to me than my family.

2010-06-09T02:22:00.000-07:00

To be safe, I had applied for Monash University... If Rejected by SIM which was like so super sad...

I will go australia! I definately will get a degree!...
>.<

Thats it! I dun care about other thing else liao!
That's it That's it!

2010-06-02T02:48:00.000-07:00

両親は私分からない。私何を考えて、私何を悩む。両親ぜんぜん分からない。

今の私何をできる？　何が好き？　私自分の自信じゃない。

私、私知らない。

迷子。

でも私は私手伝って欲しいだ。だから、私もっと頑張ってつもりです。
私できるですか、できないですか？分からないでも、一度やって見たい。

未来誰もわからない。でもそれは未来楽しいとおもしらい理由だと思う。
楽しい未来が欲しいなら、私もっと頑張ったら、もっと楽しい未来があるんと思う

未来のために！私のために。

2010-05-28T23:58:00.000-07:00

Look Through all the Blog I realized, everyone had started to changed some way or others... little by little

Everyone had moved forward. Whether it was to university or to NS... well some might be forced to do so... but too bad they dun have have a choice ><

But well... I was rather curious to see what we will all become 10 years from now... mayb kopitian ah pei or some obasan waiting at the super market or someone even more...? haha think too much! Back to my Daily Life! It's getting boring!

2010-05-28T23:25:00.000-07:00

Too free....

Lesson was canceled today... as usual I only found out quite sometime, after the message was sent to me...

Well... having a handphone or not having doesn't seem to be much different to be since i either AFH (Awy from handphone), which is very common for me or my handphone MIA from me..... Well even though it was always me who will be MIA from my handphone... well i wonder how do i even acheive that!!! That is an amazing feat~!

2010-05-18T07:59:00.000-07:00

Super Nice Song ><>

A fantastic movie hcalled Tokyo Tower about a mother and son...! Well felt like punching the son in the middle of the show! Seriously well made sob sob sob...

2010-05-12T08:29:00.000-07:00

I STILL HAVEN'T RECEIVE ANY LETTER AHHAHAH!!!

2010-05-08T11:14:00.000-07:00

Today Outing with K.E! yeah! haha an Enjoyable outing...!

Jin Jin & Wei han broke up so extremely many time today! haha it was kind of fun!

Wow.... thinking back it was amazing of the intake of food that we had Today!
But as expected for a NORMAL K.E. outing... FOund out a lot of thing today :)
Knowing them, was really my luck! Well I am a lucky Person... in this hahaaaa!

Depressed over University Application.... hahaha but depression won't change anything! I shall work harder... to achieve my goal....

At least, what i can do is to make sure that I do not waste my life away.
Life is precious after all! :)

Haizz.... kind of sad and well I admitted that i was a little bit well is quite angry that su ying cannot come to this outing even though it was promised or even though we planned this outing so that we could meet her... after like 1 year... But she's sick afterall so cannot expect much... well next time ba... :(

Oh ya went to a super fun restaurant! the swing or rather the seat is FUN definately FUN wahahahaaaaaa..... :)

Well life is unpredictable! Let's all make the best out of it ba! :)
MAke our life worthwhile! AN unforgetable experience for each individual!

2010-04-25T08:03:00.000-07:00

みんな！こんにちわ！
わたしはジャシーカ！人はくしきの物だ！
くしきの理由が、人はとても複雑。誰も人何を考えて分からない！
わたしね！実は私が何を考えてもわからないだ！変ですよ！

先ず、近来身体はちょっと病気になる！かぜやめないし、頭が痛いし、大変だ！
元気の身体が欲しい！だから、薬はしゅようのものだ！

2010-04-21T08:37:00.001-07:00

wahaha Today Theme is cosplay!

Haruhi

Anime Fest at Tokyo Big Sight

Haruhi? School Girl?

FMA

Food

Blogger seriously took too much time to upload a PHOTO!

I am Hungry as always!

Haiz...my future is bleak! Cover by lots of cloud with hidden Sun.

Today One of my friend asked me a question that I dun even dare to think of it.

He asked Hey Jessica What if you are not accepted to any of these universities?

I answer: I think at least one of them would accepted me...?

Even though I answered that, I do hesitate for a moment... I kind of noe that this might be possible in fact the probability of it happening is rather kind of high...

I knew that I should be prepared for the worst and yet I do not want to...

It's like I am deceiving myself! Jessica dun worry u will certainly get a position in university!

Well... ma ii.... I guess I should leave my fate to god! God Please help me! I am in ur hand!

2010-04-14T10:40:00.001-07:00

Oh Got photo from Yu hong Today yay!!!

Said something i shouldn't say today... haiz stupid brain + mouth

---Some Photo in Japan

oishi Udon! Yummy!! wan some?

OMG! Samurai san: Who's there!?

Poor Brian! He's sweeping the floor!

Crazy Ninja!!! Dun act like a fake

Nice Job in taking this pic!

Finaly Conclusion: Blogger took too long to update a photo!

Trip

2010-04-13T03:01:00.001-07:00

Back from Japan haha! it's been a long time since i upload.

If I had to said anything abt this trip it would take days! wahaha

Got cheated in Pokemon center!!!

Pokemon center!!!

Well the rest I can't remember. I only noe tat i brought a toy back home that could not be played NICE ONE!

Next the red light district in Shinjuku!
It was a WOW place that make me wowwww... guys that look like retards/ anyway dun look good guys can be a host well jia hui gave one of them a name hu xu nan!

But the good thing is the tsukiji the sashimi was like oh my god my saliva is coming out! It can make you cry! sob sob sob The sign of happiness....

Ameyayoko = super expensive bugis

Japan Temple, I think we spent half of our money on temple! OMG y do we like temple so much or y do temple keep showing themselves when they noe that we can't resist them!!! >.< But love it!

Maid Cafe = meow meow moe moe kyu kyu kyu Lovu!? + 8 failures!

Suwa = most enjoyable and cheaper
Made snow man there super happy! >.<

School gals = shorts skirt (well there are a few exception)

Japan small kides = dame dame dame!!!

Fuji High Q = SUPER EXTREMELY DUPER OMGNESS COLDDDDDDDDDD!!!

Mc = Super delicious (my own opinion, is the mc in singapore consider mc?)

Suki ya = Jia Hui Love it! wahahaha

Lastly must complain! Why is the transport so expensive! I dun noe how many thousand yen we have spend there! But well the services was gd even though we caught one idiot slping there like ... erm show ur the photo someday!

2010-03-18T04:12:00.000-07:00

There will be one Tokyo Inernational anime fair at tokyo...

The venue will be at:
TOKYO BIG SIGHT (East Exhibition Halls No. 1,2 and 3)

Ticket price at 1000 Yen each

Timing will be:
March 25 (Thu), to March 28 (Sun), 2010
Business Day: March 25 – 26 (visitors with business purpose only)
10:00-17:00
Public Day: March 27 – 28 (open to the general public)
10:00-18:00

>.< For Jessica Own references wahaha!

2010-02-23T06:52:00.001-08:00

Ok finally finish SS!
Still got WDD and IMGT to go!

>.< sadded!

Studied with wei jie, jasmine, jocelyn, candy for the WDD! Really grateful for wei jie for helping us revise... >.< coz i cmi in all the subject!

God bless!

Glad to know jasmine! hehe... actually did know her since 3DO camp but never really keep in contact.. after that did saw her but, her default expression seems quite fierce... so it's really hard for me to well, not keep a distance! >.<

But once we talk, I realise that she was in fact quite a straightforward person, kind of like jia hui but of course jia hui still ownage! Jia hui is indeed the MOST straightforward person I had seen at least in my 19 years of life going 20 though! haha

Well in short, jasmine was a nice person! haha but to wei jie maybe...?! >.<
According to what i observe at least, as long as they are in the range of vision of each others, cannon began to drop!hehe... But I guess it was perhaps their way of communicating... anyway i really think that they get along well despite of well.... of all the cannon and a little bit of ...? nooo a lot, perhaps of fire!?

OMG Really looking forward to thursday... >.<... Finishing exam soon >.<
AAAAA!

hahaha Jocelyn let's us chiong until thursday! Everyone score A! haha think too much

2010-02-23T06:52:00.000-08:00

Ok finally finish SS!
Still got WDD and IMGT to go!

>.< sadded!

Studied with wei jie, jasmine, jocelyn, candy for the WDD! Really grateful for wei jie for helping us revise... >.< coz i cmi in all teh subject!

God bless!

Glad to know jasmine! hehe... actually I noe her since 3DO camp but never really keep in contact.. after that did saw her but her default expression seems quite fierce... so it's really hard for me to not keep a distance! >.<

But once she talk to me, I realise that she was in fact quite a straightforward person, kind of like jia hui but of course jia hui still ownage! btw jia hui is the MOST straightforward person I had seen at least in my 19 years of life going 20 though! haha

Well in short jasmine was a nice person! haha maybe not to wei jie >.<
Jasmine and wei jie like wood and fire sia put them together sure got fire!
According to what i observe at least if they are in the range of vision of each others hehe... But I guess it was perhaps their way of communicating... anyway i really think that they get along well despite of well.... of all the fire!

OMG Really looking forward to thursday... >.<... Finishing exam soon >.<
God bless everyone!

hahaha Jocelyn let's us chiong until thursday! May everyone score A! haha think too much

2010-02-22T01:22:00.000-08:00

神さまお願い！Aは欲しいです！お願いします！この試験はとても大切です！大学校いきたいん！
私の人生は何ですか？

神さまに頼みたい！

2010-02-16T23:59:00.001-08:00

ex-girlfriend, ex-boyfriend...
ex = something of the past
Hence Ex-am , I wan my ex to be exam!

2010-02-13T00:43:00.000-08:00

NEW YEAR EVE!!! woooo happy chinese new year!

Sianned,... rotting at home can see all the fungi and mushroom growing on my head... But at least I could save the money on mushroom and fungi for steamboat lol....! haha

wooo kind of disgusting using those rotted mushroom and fungi from a rotting bread, for steamboat?... haha wonder who dares to eat!?

Went to my teacher office yesterday for lesson I was like kind of awed by her office! The scenery was so fantastic. Didn't known that Sinagpore scenery was so beautiful.... hmmm well having live here for 19 years but i guess i still do not understand singapore since I could still get lost in singapore~ haha that was quite an achievement to get lost in Singapore I guess...!

May god bless my trip to Japan... Pray Pray Pray...

There was many things for us to achieve and the road was still long... Hope that 30 years later we will be awed by ourselves, how we manage to get rid of thses obstacles that come through our way... i wonder that would be possible haha!

2010-02-11T20:17:00.000-08:00

ああああ！試験が近くです！だから勉強の時間はもと長いです！
毎日勉強して、寝た！つまらないな人生です！
でもこの人生はとたも充実。最近大学校の申し込みお仁記入した、でもあまり自信じゃない。
神さまお願いです！大学校の申請成功！

最近、起きて、朝ご飯をたべて、ショワを浴びて、学校へ行って、うちに帰って、ひるごはんを食べて、ねった。
面白いの事件じゃない！
映画を見たい、買い物に行きたい。試験を終わるの時ぜいたいに遊びたい！
映画館、ショッピングセンタ私にまってね！

えいとね、面白いのじけんがないでも面白いの人がいった！
例、学校の先生！先生のあたまがピカピカだよ！この理由本道にわからない！
ピカピカの頭は電球が見たいですよ！じつはピカピカのほうがクラスの神秘！
でもね！頭その集中なら、クラスの教育もと集中してください！
少なくともクラスの時間に遅れないください！

今日はケーキもう食べたいです！私一番の恋人、税対にケーキさん！ケーキさん高いでも大好き！

2010-02-09T23:19:00.000-08:00

先週先生とわたしに日本語でBlogを書　きます。
だから日本語でｂlogを書く。
本道に難しいですよ！英語のBlogはじゅ分にできる。でも日本語なら二十分もできないですよ！
大変ですよ！

はい、面白いいの物はない！でも変のものあるよ！
一番、昨日朝おきくて、ｼｮﾜを浴びて、かばんをパクしって、バスを乗った。
そして学校にいった。

ちょっと早いいから居室のdoor locked!!!
待ってのとき変のものあった！

変の男いった！男のこえはおきおき！学校よりおとこのこえおき！しんじらないですよ！

Blogは終わる！待ったね！

2010-02-05T08:06:00.000-08:00

SS Project finished today but kind of cmi hope god could show me all of her kindness and let me get tops grade even though the project was like cmi!!! GOD I WILL WORK HARDER so please bless me! Even though I like to suan ppl but basically i dun mean any harm... well at least I think so!!! I seriously dun mean it but just tat i find the topic irresistible! Sorry god i noe my mistakes...!

Ching Ching

2010-02-04T03:11:00.000-08:00

Ching Ching Ching Ching Ching Ching LOL This was irritating!!!
Found out tat the best way to irritate a person is to keep on chanting ching ching.... Well or course chant when tat person is around....LOL
It's super irritating!!! LOL

The Orgin of Chinc Ching came from this video! Hilarious!!

Chessy Pick up line

2010-02-04T03:06:00.000-08:00

Like cheese? having almost the same character but cheese and cheesy pick up line is definately different....

For Example:
1.
What's your name? My name is John but you can call me tonight
[got a cold chill....~]
2.
Hey girl let's do a Math Equation
First let's start by subtracting your clothes
Add a Bed
Divide your leg
and multiple!!!!
[lol get it? Guys who try will definately be slapped >.< At least I think so lol...]

2010-01-29T07:35:00.000-08:00

Finally finish my SCM --> well not really finish but at least there is something... >.< still need to double check to ensure it is completed. =)

Helped my mum today; well not really help since I was like eating snake the whole session~ since I need to leave by 12 and the restaurant get busy at 12 so i was like just slacking the whole time there.... luckly there was yu hong there to help up till dun noe when well he was late in the morning so should deduct HIS SALARY wahaha! >.
then went to WISP for presentation! wooo presentation finish but i dun really remember wat happen in the middle so I would just skip to the interesting part

It started when we had finish the WISP, me and jocelyn went to far east to shopping then all of a sudden one guy or a boy - secondary school just came forward and ask Jocelyn number! wooo... pretty girls definately had a lot of suiter! wahaha! I was like wondering should i push jocelyn away or wat,.... but by the time i had finish thinking, jocelyn had already settle the boy so i couldn't really remember wat happen =)

tat's all! =) Good luck to my exam ! wahaha!

Question?

2010-01-19T06:57:00.000-08:00

oh ya flip through my phone photo... I think this was taken during the anime fair... with jia hui... I think something like this scared her... See!!!

Lol guess wat is it!!!

2010-01-17T07:57:00.000-08:00

The planning for the trip was finally settle down...

during the planning i think i had became someone who went ard cursing others...opps...
Those who I curse please forgive me... since my curse dun work either way... --> I talk a lot but basically I will do less than 90% of wat i said or watever i said just dun came to work... wow tat remind me of DPM...

wow... I really sucks at coordinating... and planning... hmm at least i found a NoNO for my career NEVER BE A COORDINATOR coz the company will probably burst if i work in any of them... well no company will want to hire me for one anyway =}

Found tat there is 2 side of people... No people are too bad and no people are too good... I sounded like as if I was talking rubbish... ! ok yes i am...

Hope the trip will be an enjoyable one.. god bless!!! Really wan a trip where everybody can enjoy to their fullest >.< well especially myself hehe...

still got many things more to do Assignment ah Assignment

Finally Really Settle Jia hui is going with me to Japan I am not the only gal le.. huu~~ heng ah!!!
Well since this is our individual trip, hope we won't get lost >.< god bless again :)

Japan Trip

2010-01-15T10:52:00.000-08:00

Planning for Japan Trip really made me headache.
I seriously didn't noe wat to do...
At first there was 2 guy 2 girl a perfectly nice number.
Now Perhaps I am the only Girl Left?

The ticket had already been book but the date need to be changed again? lol i Seriously didn't noe wat to do...

The agent who book the ticket was my mum long time customer if because of this trip i causeses her to lost this precious customer I didn't noe wat I could do... I would be guilty for the rest of my life.

The cherry blossom bloom in the April 5(Quite unprediable at the same time due to global warming)...

But is it really worth it to spend a few hundred bucks more to see the sakura bloom???
Beside this, there are also a few thing.... April being the peak period had increases air ticket prices, difficult to find a hotel room etc.

Prices of the hotel room will definately increases as well. Seriously wat should I do?

With all this odds is April a right choice?
Beside our budget just dun match...
2 Opposition Parties...

There is just a lot of thing to do but no time to finish

For the Japan Trip if I were to be the only gal to go, my parent might not give me the permission to travel.

After planning for so long... o.o what should i do?
I am totally lost...
It's not a matter of fact that whether u dun wan to go to Japan or not it's a matter of fact that this trip should be an enjoyable one.

Why do I feel so suffocated planning this trip & stressed up?
Why?

What should I do? God can you please give me hint?
What can I do?

2009-12-25T09:49:00.000-08:00

Went to celebrate christmas today.. Ohhh super bloat now...! GUILTY again... keep on complaining & complaining...

My brother saw me eating he was like
Brother(AMAZED ; dun ask me how much i eat): I thought u dieting
ME: Ya
Brother: U sure
ME: Yes
Brother: oh I am amazed by how u diet
ME: huh
Brother: u clear the table FULL OF FOOD!
ME: Ohhh.... haha today is christmas so I would just take a break from dieting
Brother: OMG u just said u wan to persist with dieting YESTERDAY god damn it!
ME: Did I?? .. haha
Brother: ok.... ( Completely given up on me he said)
Brother: Some people eat to live, but u live to eat so just simply give up the thought on dieting u will never succeed!
ME Now: Damn him!

2009-12-12T09:10:00.000-08:00

OMG Super funny...!!!
Today my 2 brother were like quarreling to watch tv... Then my first brother say wat ok to be fair lets has a vote by raising up! So both my br o & dad raise up both hand & leg! so they got 8 vote... then my youngest bro say no lor me and mum also got 8 votes... LOL then my first brother go and off the light & say wat ok now u only got 4 vote le - He is trying to imply tat his skin is black so when the light is turn off he can't be seen lol!

2009-12-11T08:28:00.000-08:00

Went to study today with wei jie and jocelyn seow~!

ok must stress on this part!
As I need my laptop and my note, so i need to went home first to get my stuff... Jocelyn accompany me... When got home i was like since I was here might as well tied my hair... so i go tie hair... suddenly have the urge to make fun of my brother, I told him chio bu come liao leh! don't want go out see ah!

He gave me the " I am not interested face" then....
However... a few min later, he rush out to the living room... I was like u need so kan jiong ma!?

Then when joc & me was abt to go... he seriously tried to walk out with the uninterested face but his whole body languages told me tat "hey I am damn interested"!!! OMG!!! PUBERTY AGE BOYS!

2009-11-20T08:41:00.001-08:00

Just came back from judo... wooo!
Tomorrow going to anime festival wahaha!~

haiz many assignment haven't started yet... Ohoh!

Oh ya! Yesterday my mum bring back a super delicious bento which consist of tonkatsu-pork... But she used chicken method and scallop!
waaa!! SUper nice...
But then it might be because tat I ate them before I slept, I dreamed tat I was being chased by chicken followed being trapped by scallop thing tat look like octopus which ended when maki drop from the sky... kind of an adventurous dream...! Wonder why I never get tired in the dream despite of being entangled in such a wierd plot!

Well back to today life
Wto meet wei jie and get the GTA! haha! Thx a lot! hehe!
Went to judo...kind of few people today...
Things tat made my day will be one fantastic uncle fetch us home! So sweet of him...! I do not need to pay fares! o good can save a few cent!
Interesting part start here... we chat abt many crap... there was one this new movie about the par.. watever activity... suppose to be an extremely scary movie, tio jio by one guy to watch but I AM DEFINATELY NOT WATCHING! spent money to scare yourself siao ah!

2009-11-17T23:09:00.000-08:00

信じらない！この男たちまず女だいよ！

絶対女です！男じゃない！怖い！ｍａｋｅ－ｕｐ！

Back to English...

OMG OMG! They are real and straight guys! OMG OMG!

Slap myself! pia! pia!

Omg....... Imagine if u are their guy friend... wooo! I think u won't find girls interesting since ur friend look like oooh... Super amazing except tat he is a guy... well i guess tat part can be overlooked since he look cuter than any girls anyway! OMG!... still can't believe it (shake my head, shake my head)...

2009-11-02T07:41:00.000-08:00

Went to judo! OMG... got one kids like 12 years old was my partner for the practice... then randomly he ask: How old are you?

I reply: 19
Kids: OMG...
Me ( was hoping he would say OMG you look young or watever..)
Kids continue: OMG U are so short!
Me (Feel like strangling him but sill I reply)
Me: NOooo! I avergae height ok!
stupid kid: Are u bluffing? even girls in my class are taller than u!
Me(psycho myself: Jessica endure!!!)
Me in the end: maki komi him! (something like punch him or wat but then... tio own by him)
haiz so sad... wat a failure.....

2009-10-28T09:24:00.000-07:00

School Reopen!

woo... kind of excited since it's been a long time since I return my status back to being a student!
Being a student is the best afterall.....

However everydays seems to be too busy.. well i do know that i sucks at time management... erm hum...

Ok finally something to updates!
First of all woo hoo! I finished my English 'O' Level... hmmm how do i fare? How do I Know...
But I was sick on tat day so can't expect too much! haiz

Oh god! Please let me PASS!B3 ? if not C5 aiya C6 also can la! Just let me pass!!!

Well... went to Kbox today... with .... 6 others people my classmate!!! wooo! Sing a lot and they have to endure with my awful voice! Sorry guys for being too enthusiastic today, it has been a long time since I went to one!!!

wow do a lot of stupid thing today like,=... erm hum I guess ah seow should know like hitting the tissues packet towards my own face.... accidentally .... even wonder how it manage to happen!!!

2009-10-12T08:15:00.000-07:00

Went for the discussion today..
Had been wondering why jia hui had not been replying me since last week.. every sms i mean...
Then called today to only realise tat i had called the wrong Jia hui...
...
Keep on drifting to different topic... due to erm hum...

Discussion completed.. meetingon nov again to discuss...

Today discussion give rises to different issue tat had been hidden inside me...
the A: Hope to finish the graduation faster so can enjoy myself in japan
B : Hope tat the time will stop till I decided what to do until my poly graduation.
Could say there is still ample time for me to ponder on my future yet time still seems to be too running too fast for me to catch up on...
I am quite a slow person..., yet time seems to be an olympic runner!
running at i guess 1000km/hr...? ermmm.. seem to be too exaggerated.

Time for me to sit down and be serious for ermmmm.. for at least for once, to decided on my direction in my life.
You can only live once so treaure it, I guess! yet life is a stage, ... a very time consumng stage though!
At least always be the main actor during the stage, do not always listen to the orders of others actor in your life. If not that will not be your show anymore.

Having a unsettled feeling at the moment! but once decided on a decision follow through with it. Even if Iregretted it later on, at least I did what I think that I am supposed to do at that time, perhaps this might make me feel better, i suppose. Beside I might not really regretted it.

Last but not least would like to apologize to jia hui!
Sorry for waking you up to ask you a stupid question! Feeling extremely guilty right now!
ごめんなさい、ジアフイちゃん ;Gomen Nasai Jia hui Chan!

Have been nagging abt how bad my mum is to several ppl within these week... Feel bad abt it. People! Just bear with it!
But even though I like to complain... But i do love her a lot!(I guess so..)Just tat even if i noe i am wrong i will try to convince myself i am not!... hehe... tryinh to psycho myself tat I am right! (I failed terribly at it though! Justice do win wahaha!)

So wat i am saying during those moment does not make sense just bear with me but dun accompany me to critize her... since i will definately be even more annoyed with u than with mum... I have reserve the right to be the only one to critize wahahah! well tat's all.

2009-10-06T19:13:00.000-07:00

Yesterday went to wei jie Birthday.. Chalet... hmmm first of all HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEI JIE!!!
wahahahaaa....

I seems to drink too much at the chalet then began to walk wobbly & felt like vomiting...!
I swear that I won;t drink so much again! Well much for me little for jia hui I guess...

Then went home eariler since I cannot tahan le....!

Went home and had a really good sleep... It's the best sleep I ever had... Felt Extremely refreshed after I woke up!... POWER UP!

Then I realized... OMG I FORGOT TO ASK WEI JIE ABT THE IPOD TOUCH THING!
hmmm... next time next time....

Went to work this morning only to realized that ah seow WALLET still in my bag.. no wonder my bag felt a little heavy today... I thought I was hallucinating..

then it came to my mind... OMG HOW DID AH SEOW EVEN GO HOME YESTERDAY!?
Then sms her... i was like.... ok quite paisei la...
ah seow sorry for "kidnapping ur wallet".........

2009-10-04T20:37:00.000-07:00

Comparing seems to be everydays to us.
We Compare about everything... From Prices of product to our lifestyle, looks, or even our past.

Ever heard of this sentences " When I was young ah! I used to help my mother do housework unlike you" or " I work from young, unlike you, my child who only laze around at home".

My mum used to say that. They Just Keep on comparing and comparing to the extent that I felt that it was pure irritating.

Compare, might be a motivation to motivate a person to work harder but excessive might just backfired. Or it will just be irritating to the listening and bring frustatration to the speaker since it was obvious to the speaker that the listener just took whatever the speaker said as rubbish.

Everyone has a unique personality and traits. Hence if compare a certain someone to another it might be kind of impossible.

Try comparing a musician with a scientist.
You can said that the scientist was bad with music compared to the musician which was of course! It should be that way.

In School, we compare about result, who gets the better result and so on.
In Work, we compare about our social status, position, salary etc...
When we form a family, we compare about our children...
we just keep on comparing and comparing until the day when we were buried by the soil.

Only then we will lies peacefully without comparing, inside the earth.

Some people like to say " I think you can't do that"/ " You won't be able to ..."

They tend to put their Speculated opinion/result on others.
They tend to judge.

But How long do you think the Judges that sit on the chair inside the courts studied or work to become a judge?

Why do they need to take so long to even have the qualification of being one?

That's because any misjudgement will cost the lives of a innocent parties.

In daily lives our misjudgement might not cost the lives of a innocent parties but it will be a mistreatement to the others parties.
To make it simply it's just not the right thing to do.

This might sound contridicting.
There is no absolutely right or wrong thing in this world, nor there is a can't or can task/job in this world.

Since there is no absolute in this world.
We can't say if a person is right or wrong perhaps we could only feel all this through our moral/integrity as a human.

However there is no person that was totally perfect nor there totally imperfect...
Hence there should be no body that was totally fair enough to judge others.
Whatever we think that was right could only be our perspective/opinion.

Since it was only our own, the only person that we could judge could only be we, ourselves.

2009-10-04T20:12:00.000-07:00

hmm back to work Officially 19th haha!

Went with some friends on sat to eat SAKAE BUFFET!

haha.. so I gain more weight... hmm... must go exercise more!!!

After that went to vivo.. and they ask me to choose a present so i choose a backpack!
Quite useful! Thanks a lot for the present ah! haha

Then sat at the Sky park to chit chat...
yx keep on complaining got smell... while I didn't smell anything... He must have possess a DOG NOSE! WAhaha...

hmm LEt's make the next outing an exercising session to get rid of the fats gained on sat! wahaha... !

2009-10-01T23:41:00.000-07:00

Need to go for something today...
Hoho.. Today Birthday mean 1 year older le! haha Suppose to be more mature NOT OLD!

Happily went to work this morning, then my colleague just made me super sad...
I was like:

Me: OMG! Today my birthday super happy leh!
Colleague: OMG TODAY ur birthday congratualtion!... then so on
Colleague A: haha just nice got present for u..
I was like stunned... OMG!
ME: Thanks you! (but secretly wondering wat's tat..." Note*: He did not wrap the present but i still dun noe wat is tat thing)....
Colleague B: Happy Birthday
Colleague C: Happy Birthday...

All is well until..................................
Colleague C: So today is ur 20 wat birthday?
Colleague C:26? Getting Degree soon?
Me: OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!! 26 wat 26! I am still in the ten OKAY in the ten.. I am 19th!!!
Then suddenly Colleague B spoke..
Colleague B: WAT U ARE ONLY 19! REALLY Ah (with a super duper suprise tone)
ME: I was like ya (dun feel like saying anything coz emo liao)
Me continue: I thought I told u I am currently pursuing my studies in poly?
Colleague B: Ya I thought u repeat ur studies many times (TOUCH WOOD!!!)
ME (trying to stay calm): How old do u think I was
Colleague B: 24?
Me (Feel like strangling him but still managed to forced a smile): 24....
... ... ... ... ... ... ... I Shall Announce I am only 19 19 19 19!!!

haizzz... shall pack up my thing then vent my frustration on something later!

2009-09-22T20:01:00.001-07:00

Feeling down...
working is not going to be that easy after all....

...

Ok Buck up! Work Harder!... haha

2009-09-18T00:47:00.000-07:00

Question: What is the beauty of wearing a dress?
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Answer: You will never have to worry about the bottom!

2009-09-16T23:19:00.000-07:00

The word imperfect actually came from the word perfect
im + perfect = imperfect

Because of perfect, there bring imperfect.

This two word seems to be link, they seem to suggest that without one, there won't be the others

defination of imperfect: flaw

I do believe that flaw is actually a very common thing in fact a little too common.
However because there are flaws, there bring strengths.

I do believe that they are connected just as how human are connected to one another.

Examples
Flaw: Stubborn, Strength:determination
Because one is stubborn in their own way, they will have enough determination to do something.

Flaws & Strength seem to come as a package.
If a object has non of those I do believe that they are not an object of this planet.

People like to amuse themselves with the weakness of others.
Some do this to feel themselves as the more superior kind.

However they do have their own flaws.
If one has the time to laugh at others, why don't they look at their own first?
For those, who were blinded by the so called weaknesses of others were the most foolish!

2009-09-15T19:02:00.000-07:00

Yesterday went to gym with jinjin wh, jx, joc + jin jin friendss...

Do the tummy flatten exercise... Like no effect on me leh wonder y...!
Conclusion should be I too lazy liao!...

then we went to ate at macdonald (Note hor I use then not than got improvement?) haha

No Shaker Fries.... sadded.....

After tat we chat for quite sometime....
Really look forward to saturday.... Saturday c u SOON!

Story #01

2009-09-08T22:40:00.000-07:00

There was a party
In the party there was a girl so beautiful that all the guys were trying to get close to her.

John was also interested in her but, he know himself that she was so ravishing, while he was just some regular guys that she might not even look at.

Anyway, John still ask her out. The girl was not interested in John but out of courteously, she agree to go out with him for a cup of coffee.

............................................

At the cafe

The girl and John was sitting at the table...
The atmosphere was awkward...
Both John and the girl was keeping quiet. There was no topic

In fact John had tried to create a topic but it was cut off by a simple answer from the girl

John: How do you like the atmosphere here
Girl: It's ok
John: dun u think it has good ambiance?
Girl: Perhaps
John:(didn't noe wat to say anymore)

quiet.........................................

Girl (thinking) : Oh stop talking just quickly made a order and let me go home!

Finally after a long awkward silence... the girl open her mouth.

Girl: Maybe we should make an order.
John: Huh..! yayaya oh yaya
John: Sorry
Girl annoyed...

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John made a signal and the waiter came to them...
The girl order a coffee with sugar.. than

Waiter: Anything else
silence.................
Girl again annoyed
Girl: John would u like to made any order
John space out...
John: huh AH!
Everybody look at him.................
Girl embarassed
Girl thinking: Perhaps I should not agreed into going out with him
John: I would like to have a coffee...
Waiter: ok ....
John: WITH SALT... (shouted)
Everbody looked at him again but this time was amazed
Waiter: Certainly Sir
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Girl (curious): You drink coffee with salt?
John: ya when I was young I lived near the sea. When I grew old, I left my hometown. But I still miss everything there. My family... and everything.
So whenever I started to think about my hometown I started to drink coffee with salt. It remind me of the sea.

Girl(thinking): A guy who thinks about hometown must be a good guy
Girl: Started Talking abt her hometown
---------Awkwardness was soon gone----------------
They chated and chated....
After going out a few time, the girl found out that John was everything she ask for.
He was patient, Caring, Considerate etc.....

Within a few month of dating they got married...
Everytime, the girl will made a cup of salt coffee for John.

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50 years later
Both Girl and John was old.

John was lying on his bed dying...............
Before he died, he tell his wife... I have something for u. It's inside my cupboard.

John died.....................................

Girl open the cuoboard and find a letter......
Inside the letter:
Hi my dear wife,
When you see this letter, I might be dead.
Sorry I have one thing to confess to you.

I have never lied to you in my whole entire life except for one thing.

Let me tell you a fact. Actually I hate salt coffee. It was so terrible that everytime I had to force it down my throat.

But one contridicting thing was that, I had drank the salted coffee for my entire life.

During our first date when the waiter ask me for my order...
Actually I intended to said coffee with sugar...
But as I was too Nervous, I said the wrong thing...
But was too embarassed to change my order...
So I told you the lie about my hometown, the sea. My hometown was located at an isolated area, not to mention sea, my home town was actually located in a very hot area where water was actually precious.

After we got married, yoou make salt coffee for me everyday, how i hope tat u will mistaken the sugar for salt one day.

Do you know how terrible the salt coffee taste.
But Dear wife whenever u made the coffee for me, it remind me of my lie to you. Hence I swear that I would never lie to you again....

Dear Wife Please Forgive me

Yes the coffee was terribe in fact it was horrible...

But If I had a chance again.... I would like to use my entire life to drink the salted coffee again you made for me again.

Contridicting it may seemed.

signed off,
Your husband

Girl by this time was an old women dropped her tears.

She say: Yes I would use my entire life to made the salt coffee for you again